(P.S. April 2nd 2020, Writeup)
Time stop for none, they said but were they telling the truth? Or am I living in a nightmare or the entire shitty world is living in a nightmare. In my 22 years old existence, I believed this phase open-heartedly but was I wrong?Or from nowhere this phase decided to change itself.
Maybe ‘TIME’ itself is tired, tired of all the bullshit happening around so TIME itself decided to stop and show the world the real term and meaning of hopelessness.
Every human is in a cage, A cage which they build with all their pride and proud which they used to call as ‘home’ – fully hi-tech cage. A cage full of their loved ones, still they are not happy, still they are suffocating. So maybe TIME decided to catch each and everyone into his claws and make them taste just a drop of ‘loathe-venom’.
‘Time stop’, never happened before, Every day is a hopeless Sunday, Every work is just timepass, Every heartbeat is waste, Every thought is in vain, Freedom is in prison, Energy-draining yet no outsource, Hopes dying in a corner, Soul suffocating bit by bit, The sky is nowhere a limit now.
This time loop of ‘shit another useless day started to finally completed a day’ is getting on my nerves. I never fear death nor I am doing it right now but this situation of dying without freedom is messing my head up.
It has been days I haven’t seen a single tree, my plants are dying(have no F idea why), No walking with beautiful huge trees – standing tall waving open wide sky full of the star and hope along with heart dropping charming Moon, no podcast vibes, no swimming for peace, just dull series-movies-games, Running on a treadmill staring hopelessly at wall dreaming about restlessness, book, and dark chocolate stocks are almost over, and the list goes on and on but the point being, here I am not complaining because I know some people don’t even have their homes for survival and all this emotion of mine is making no sense, adding to the fact that I am an ‘Extra-hyper claustrophobic bossy adult’ which is making this situation more and more worst with no bonded time period to be contingent on.
This situation also forces me to question myself “what is the most important thing ‘FREEDOM’ or ‘SURVIVAL’ ”?– to all my surprise, the answer was totally against my will & ideology but you never know when this answer get back to my origin cause that the motive of my living….!
According to Wikipedia freedom is ‘Having the ability to act or change without constraint’– without constraint which is directly conflicting TIME and TIME is in no mood for that, “Freedom is the sure possession of those alone who have the courage to define it ”, I hope and pray we all have that courage to bounce back to humanity.
Till then let’s just give a try to be a better version of our yesterday-self, for-us, our families, surroundings, animals, nature and including Homo-sapiens of all-caste-creed-religion-color-gender-thinking-status-…..- just for a sake of flesh and blood.
Hopefully, TIME will prove his point and give us a chance to bounce back to humanity, till then the only thing that matters and the only hope is
ASTIGHFAR (seeking forgiveness from ALMIGHTY)