Women’s day…..!


Happy women’s day to all the fathers, brothers, husbands, sons, sirs, in-laws, boy friends and,
to all the men in our lives who never ever discriminate our existence and are always so proud of us

Hopelessly lost

As-salamu alaykum(Peace be upon you)

There are situations in life where you know what to do and with that ‘what to do’ you get a confidence booster as well but what to do in a situation where you can’t stop chanting ‘I don’t know’.

In this post I tried to pen down a poetic approach towards hopelessness and how you can’t give up in the worst of the worst scenario. This poem is for you, me, us, and everyone who ever felt this way, so let’s just dive in;/

How to feel happy? I Don’t Know

How to stop feeling lonely all the time? I Don’t Know

How to bury all my worries deep down? I Don’t Know

How to kick out the anxiety? I Don’t Know

How to stop my brain from speaking zillion voices all at once and always? I Don’t Know

How to enjoy the calmness? I Don’t Know

How to sleep like a baby? I Don’t Know

How to eat like a free spirit? I Don’t Know 

How to embrace the relaxation in my head? I Don’t Know

How to live life? I Don’t Know

How to die? I Don’t Know

How to put the act of being all normal and ok to an end? I Don’t Know

How to remove this heaviness from my chest? I Don’t Know

How to control this uncontrollable flow of tears that holds my date every night? I Don’t Know

How to laugh from the soul? I Don’t Know

How to feel the positivity? I Don’t Know

How to save myself from drowning in the black dark ocean? I Don’t Know

How to open up to the people I love the most? I Don’t Know

I just freaking don’t know anything, ‘Just don’t know’. but Somehow Somewhere deep inside, I know that I can’t give up, that I can’t lose the battle, that I am stronger than I know myself, just I know that…..

and If I can do…. So can YOU….

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Every second~ I long to hold you so tight like there’s no other but just You&Me,
I need you,
I want you,
In all my mood swings above and beyond,
I have to have you anyhoo,
Your Warmth,
Your Smell,
Your Kiss,
N……and everything that i can’t express as Ineffable emotions are damn difficult to put into words but You My Love, More than Love❤💌

Falling Apart

As-salamu alaykum (Peace be upon you) 

And just like that …..

Moon shining in the Memories,  

Star becoming Falling Star,

  Wind changing its Direction, 

Clouds traveling in a Foreign Land,

Sky watching the Departure, 

Birds hoping for Sun Rays,

Eyes lingering for Rain,

Trees trying to hang some positivity, 

Flower blossoming in the Hopes,

But still,

Everything is falling apart 

Everything is fading away

In million ways,

In million hopes,

In million tears,

In million pieces,

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Dispatching The Feelings

As-salamu alaykum (peace be upon you)

In this judgmental human race where everyone is busy judging each other it is very important to ignore the world and start judging yourself.

When I say start judging yourself has nothing to do with the actions and reactions of your behavior, it’s more about the feelings because I strongly believe that an individual personality is the byproduct of the way they think and feel. The amalgamation of both think+feel forms a package of feelings. Mostly disconcert, yet the most poisonous parcel you will receive anyhow. I know you may get a little confused around but please be patient and read for more depth.

Coming back to the topic, let me break down things for you. Here in this concept dispatch means “letting it go” sometimes with an answer and sometimes without an answer or in whichever situation letting it go with an impact is very crucial.

Feelings- there are zillions to an infinite type of feelings one have to face and the people like me, who are sensitive-messed up-overthinker-dreamers then things turn out to be a little arduous.

Sometimes I have to deal with many feelings at a time and that makes me go crazy like hell, so I chose this topic for getting some clarity in my head as well as in your head too.

Some feelings make you, Some feelings break you, but in this process of making & breaking you will find yourself in between and let me tell you when you will find yourself that’s the most Ravishing part ever.

I sometimes wonder what are feelings? A voice, a soul, brain speaking, inner me, outer me, noisy me, improved me, uncleared me,’ what ???? It’s like a small invisible demon fighting with me continuously. 

Sometimes making things clear,  Sometimes making things mess up, Sometimes making blenders, But I know somewhere in me it exists, in fact in all of us, how we use it define us and our circumstances.

Sometimes I fascinate if there were no feelings at all what would have happened “how would we have converted from animal to social animal”. I mean just think if something fantastic happened and if there were no feelings and if something awful happened and if there were no feelings, how would we have experienced the goodness and badness of those situations in this lifespan.

We all know how to deal with positive happy feelings that’s no rocket science behind it but dealing with negative, confused, messed up, demotivating, blocking feelings, is a huge and technical task to do so.

Everyone has their way of dealing with feelings and there’s no right and wrong about that way, so if you know your feeling and you are dealing with it then congratulation you are on the correct path and I’m so proud of you. My case is different, I have to deal with more messed up feelings than good ones. They say ‘Your thinking attracts positive and negative vibes from the universe maybe my universe is unidirectional then. I was so used to those messed up feelings that they became part of me, it was like ‘breathing oxygen for anyone’ it was that obvious to me.

It took me years to adjust with these feelings, it distress me in many ways but then eventually, it comes as a benefit to me, as I know those feeling for so long that I befriend with them, so now I know or should I say I act as I know that from which places it has come and what point it is holding or it is pointless

The differential between point and pointless is very sensitive to explain but let me give it a try  -The pointless feeling is just a temporary feelings they will come and go, Trapping you in a well of sadness like mood swings to an extreme next level (I know many girls will relate to this notion) and in the next couple of days you will be all fine and fit. -the pointful feelings are the one which sticks with you and gives you a lesson, they give you rebirth every time they come, give your life a New meaning, Definition, Thinking power, and what not. 

But here the point is to decode it, which requires Huge Patience, Time, Practices, and Focus.

Take lessons or feel miserable in any which way make sure to let go of useless or in general any feelings after noting down points. MOVING ON AND LETTING IT GO is my mantra and if you want you can give it a try too 

BUT the most important part is to ;

Feel The Feelings.