As-salamu alaykum,I am Soha Kapadia an Engineer with a passionate mind in writing and poetry.
My strong background as a Free Speaker and an Anchor also indulged me in podcast making
(anchor.fm/who-care's ). My work is mainly about the topic that is emotionally sensitive and mostly left untouched by an individual’s thought process. My main motive behind writing work is to make people aware about their emotional state and alongside provide an easy way out through my own walked down experiences. As a public speaker, I am open to any idea and discussion on writing work by any of my readers is more than welcome, just pen down your message at (email@example.com)
There are situations in life where you know what to do and with that ‘what to do’ you get a confidence booster as well but what to do in a situation where you can’t stop chanting ‘I don’t know’.
In this post I tried to pen down a poetic approach towards hopelessness and how you can’t give up in the worst of the worst scenario. This poem is for you, me, us, and everyone who ever felt this way, so let’s just dive in;/
How to feel happy? I Don’t Know
How to stop feeling lonely all the time? I Don’t Know
How to bury all my worries deep down? I Don’t Know
How to kick out the anxiety? I Don’t Know
How to stop my brain from speaking zillion voices all at once and always? I Don’t Know
How to enjoy the calmness? I Don’t Know
How to sleep like a baby? I Don’t Know
How to eat like a free spirit? I Don’t Know
How to embrace the relaxation in my head? I Don’t Know
How to live life? I Don’t Know
How to die? I Don’t Know
How to put the act of being all normal and ok to an end? I Don’t Know
How to remove this heaviness from my chest? I Don’t Know
How to control this uncontrollable flow of tears that holds my date every night? I Don’t Know
How to laugh from the soul? I Don’t Know
How to feel the positivity? I Don’t Know
How to save myself from drowning in the black dark ocean? I Don’t Know
How to open up to the people I love the most? I Don’t Know
I just freaking don’t know anything, ‘Just don’t know’. but Somehow Somewhere deep inside, I know that I can’t give up, that I can’t lose the battle, that I am stronger than I know myself, just I know that…..
Every second~ I long to hold you so tight like there’s no other but just You&Me, I need you, I want you, In all my mood swings above and beyond, I have to have you anyhoo, Your Warmth, Your Smell, Your Kiss, N……and everything that i can’t express as Ineffable emotions are damn difficult to put into words but You My Love, More than Love❤💌
In this judgmental human race where everyone is busy judging each other it is very important to ignore the world and start judging yourself.
When I say start judging yourself has nothing to do with the actions and reactions of your behavior, it’s more about the feelings because I strongly believe that an individual personality is the byproduct of the way they think and feel. The amalgamation of both think+feel forms a package of feelings. Mostly disconcert, yet the most poisonous parcel you will receive anyhow. I know you may get a little confused around but please be patient and read for more depth.
Coming back to the topic, let me break down things for you. Here in this concept dispatch means “letting it go” sometimes with an answer and sometimes without an answer or in whichever situation letting it go with an impact is very crucial.
Feelings- there are zillions to an infinite type of feelings one have to face and the people like me, who are sensitive-messed up-overthinker-dreamers then things turn out to be a little arduous.
Sometimes I have to deal with many feelings at a time and that makes me go crazy like hell, so I chose this topic for getting some clarity in my head as well as in your head too.
Some feelings make you, Some feelings break you, but in this process of making & breaking you will find yourself in between and let me tell you when you will find yourself that’s the most Ravishing part ever.
I sometimes wonder what are feelings? A voice, a soul, brain speaking, inner me, outer me, noisy me, improved me, uncleared me,’ what ???? It’s like a small invisible demon fighting with me continuously.
Sometimes making things clear, Sometimes making things mess up, Sometimes making blenders, But I know somewhere in me it exists, in fact in all of us, how we use it define us and our circumstances.
Sometimes I fascinate if there were no feelings at all what would have happened “how would we have converted from animal to social animal”. I mean just think if something fantastic happened and if there were no feelings and if something awful happened and if there were no feelings, how would we have experienced the goodness and badness of those situations in this lifespan.
We all know how to deal with positive happy feelings that’s no rocket science behind it but dealing with negative, confused, messed up, demotivating, blocking feelings, is a huge and technical task to do so.
Everyone has their way of dealing with feelings and there’s no right and wrong about that way, so if you know your feeling and you are dealing with it then congratulation you are on the correct path and I’m so proud of you. My case is different, I have to deal with more messed up feelings than good ones. They say ‘Your thinking attracts positive and negative vibes from the universe’ maybe my universe is unidirectional then. I was so used to those messed up feelings that they became part of me, it was like ‘breathing oxygen for anyone’ it was that obvious to me.
It took me years to adjust with these feelings, it distress me in many ways but then eventually, it comes as a benefit to me, as I know those feeling for so long that I befriend with them, so now I know or should I say I act as I know that from which places it has come and what point it is holding or it is pointless
The differential between point and pointless is very sensitive to explain but let me give it a try -The pointless feeling is just a temporary feelings they will come and go, Trapping you in a well of sadness like mood swings to an extreme next level (I know many girls will relate to this notion) and in the next couple of days you will be all fine and fit. -the pointful feelings are the one which sticks with you and gives you a lesson, they give you rebirth every time they come, give your life a New meaning, Definition, Thinking power, and what not.
But here the point is to decode it, which requires Huge Patience, Time, Practices, and Focus.
Take lessons or feel miserable in any which way make sure to let go of useless or in general any feelings after noting down points. MOVING ON AND LETTING ITGO is my mantra and if you want you can give it a try too